Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Bouncing Back

I am feeling a little better today after a few days of pain.  I still have a few weird sensitivities and issues going on and am a lot more tired than usual but I actually made it to work today, which is always helpful when you have a JOB :).   I’m so glad chemo hasn’t been like this the whole time or it would totally be on my bad list – LOL, I guess it’s not really on the top 10 list of favorites anyway :). 
So, Sunday and Monday I virtually did nothing except lay in bed + eat and other necessary life functions.  Some amazing people have been blessing my life, making meals and driving me to Dr. appointments, cleaning and doing laundry.  I am so thankful to you all – hopefully you are reading this! 
I was talking to a friend about how I feel disconnected with so many things right now because I am less involved with church, community, and even family activities.  She was kind of laughing at me, thinking I was crazy to be so hard on myself – that I was only going through a process that was trying to kill part of me (the cancer cells) – LOL.  And so my body is trying to figure out how to keep the rest of me living.  I guess she has a point, but it still bugs me :).  I’m not real good at being unproductive and really miss the energy I used to have - being more social,  playing with my nieces and nephews, and even working a long day and feeling like I accomplished a ton. 
P.S.  I miss my hair too – I was looking at some pictures yesterday and so wish to have it back.  My whole body is under construction and I know I need to have the patience to see it through to the end.  We are on the home stretch!  Only 38 days and I am done with chemo!   
I am drifting off to sleep, so that's all I have to say for now - except that tonight you get 2 quotes for the price of one ;):
“In the pain, the agony and the heroic endeavors of life, we pass through a refiner’s fire and the insignificant and the unimportant in our lives can melt away like dross and make our faith bright, intact, and strong."  – James E. Faust
“There are times when you simply have to righteously hang on and outlast the Devil until his depressive spirit leaves you.” – Ezra Taft Benson


  1. Amy, you actually have jobs right now, and the one you may not have considered is FULL TIME 24/7. You need to think "I have a full time job...I am always at the office of healing". I never took naps before cancer. Now I take one every day at 2pm on the nose, if I can. Now, repeat after me :) ---> "I have a full time job...I am always at the office of healing" Good girl... :) P.S. You are amazing!

  2. I like that you have a job

    The hair will grow back and you will be glad you have it short. Then you will want it to grow past the awkward length so you will probably cut it. And then it will be awkward again but you won't cut it because you already did that once..... And then you will get it to the shoulders and cut it to the chin.... and so it goes. In about 7 years you will have long hair again and wish it was really really short. So I guess enjoy the feeling ;) (I say that with all the love in my heart)