Monday, March 26, 2012

Just Keep Swimming . . .

I have had a lot of ups and downs over the past month since I last wrote.  I am feeling better from the surgery I had in February and my hair is still coming in strong - pictures coming soon :).  There are still lingering side effects from chemo that I am trying to figure out (hot and cold flashes, foggy brain and some tingling/dizziness/aching in my hands, feet and sometimes head.  There are times when it is difficult to drive and so I feel blessed that friends have been kind enough to chauffeur me around town.  I have had my share of sadness and discouragement from the frustration that my life is not quite back to normal yet.  But then I remember that I have my life and it is mine to live and create whatever I decide I will do with it.  
Today I saw his beautiful video that shows how Derek Redmond refused to give up after it became apparent that something he had worked long and hard for would not be fulfilled - at least not the way he had originally envisioned.  I am thankful for people like him who inspire me to keep going even when I feel like giving up.
It reminds me a lot of my situation and the way my my mother has stood by me and been there to carry me when the pain was too much for me to bear alone.  I know that there is another who is also there to carry me as I continue on this path toward wholeness.  I know He is there, even when I don’t remember or acknowledge Him.