Sunday, August 28, 2011

How Does Chemo Feel?

If you ever get the chance to take steroids just say no :).  They’re not all they’re cracked up to be – LOL.  I take 2 for the first 3 days after Chemo.  I am glad that today is my last day to take them for this 4th round of Chemo - yeah!  I have been feeling completely wired the past couple of days but at the same time very tired and not much of an appetite.  It’s a hard feeling to describe. 
I have stayed in for the most part since Thursday, but tried venturing out last night with a couple of friends to eat and go to a play.  It didn’t work out so well for me so I returned home before it was over :(.  I don’t dare drive right now and so friends and family have been kind enough to transport me.  I have hopes that tomorrow will bring a better state of overall well-being with it.  I never would have made it as a drug addict – not only because I hate needles but I also can’t stand the feeling of not being in control of my body.  This loopy-ness has got to go :).  
I did go out for a walk tonight and enjoyed chatting with neighbors, I also had fun with my nieces who came over and continued their fascination with my hairloss - LOL. 
I guess this isn’t the most uplifting update but I have been told that I need to share even the more challenging moments on my blog.  So there you go :).  Ok, but I can’t help but end on a positive note – a short paragraph from a talk by Paul V. Johnson + a repeat of a previous quote I have shared:   
“Recently a nine-year-old boy was diagnosed with a rare bone cancer. The doctor explained the diagnosis and the treatment, which included months of chemotherapy and major surgery. He said it would be a very difficult time for the boy and his family but then added, “People ask me, ‘Will I be the same after this is over?’ I tell them, ‘No, you won’t be the same. You will be so much stronger. You will be awesome!’” – Paul V. Johnson
CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT PART - just sayin'!
Elder Orson F. Whitney: “No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. … All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable. … It is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire.”


  1. Someone once asked me what chemo felt like. I's like drinking a bottle of Pinesol, and it takes a while for the poison to set in. Chemo #2 is two more bottles of pinesol, Chemo #3 was like three more bottles, #4 = 4. It's not like the flu, it's not like anything you've ever experienced. (mouth can burn, throat can burn, affects the nails and hair, and appetite can wane, and you feel very very tired....)But what you learn from this experience (the good and the bad) will last a lifetime, and Paul V. Johnson quote was PERFECT what the doctor said... YOU WILL BE SO MUCH STRONGER, YOU WILL BE AWESOME. I promise you. :) :) :) In fact, I promise, promise. That's a double. :)

  2. You are always so great to bring things into perspective! Love you Linda!

  3. You already are awesome Amy - But you will be even awesomer! Keep pumping those steroids for us! I sometimes wish I had some sort of kick when I am getting tired on mile 2 of a 4 mile run :-)

    Reminds me of the song by K'naan where he says "When I get older I will be stronger....Just like a waving flag!" -

    Thanks for your inspiration Amy! - Russ

  4. I'm glad you are brave enough to share the negative moments as well as the positive. Sometimes, as Latterday Saints, we feel like we aren't allowed to share the negative because we think we ought to be happy since we have a Savior. We do have a Savior, but Heavenly Father gave us emotions for a reason! I figure if you can share the negative, you move to positive a lot faster AND it is a healthy way to do it. Way to vomit the negative as best you can so you can continue being you. Thanks for the post!

  5. Amy- My daughter found me your blog, I start chemo next thursday I am SO unlike you I am terrified and have a bad attitude so its nice to read positive things
    thanks for what you write
    pam king
    2A breast cancer

  6. Pam - I am so sorry about your diagnosis. I know it's not easy and we all have good and bad days. I would love to help if I can - you can do this! If you want you can email me at: