Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Learning to fly

Today was a very good day – I drove for the first time in 3 weeks and it was great!  Over the past week I have been gradually easing into sitting and today was really the culmination of this in being able to kneel, stretch and drive!  I did some retail therapy at Macy’s, had a photo shoot in the afternoon and after much deliberation I bought my wig – just in time :). 
Tomorrow starts the countdown to the end of Chemo.  My cute sister Mitzi brought over a Chemo chain for me to countdown the days until I’m done.  There are 16 links in the chain (one for each week I will be in treatment) and each link has an inspiring quote written on it.  Here’s the one for this week:
"Because of the conflicts and challenges we face in today's world, I wish to suggest a single choice — a choice of peace, protection, and a choice that is appropriate for all. That choice is faith. ... Choose faith over doubt, choose faith over fear, choose faith over the unknown and the unseen and choose faith over pessimism."  Richard C. Edgley
I do choose faith and I am feeling very hopeful and optimistic that this is the beginning of the end of this trial. I’ll start bright and early with a meeting with Dr. Ward, blood work and then on to the infusion room for the excitement to begin at 10:30.  After about 3 hours, I should be done and will then have firsthand experience of the process and will see the pattern for my side effects to unfold from there.  As the famous quote goes: “When you come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly”. 


  1. Amy, You are a pillar of strength. You have taken this on as a fight and challenge that you will conquer. I love to read about how you approach each step of this process, I am taken and inspired by your positivity and faith. Good luck today.

  2. Yes, take that leap into the darkness. Your chemo buddies are here to catch you. You are not alone. :) This is all about you now. Protect your time, protect your immune system at all costs, and keep track of the tender mercies. Sat and Sun will be harder, and then the sun will come out again. You'll be rest. Naps will be a must have and please pamper yourself with whatever tastes good, and remember to drink water, to flush things through. Think of chemo this way, as those angelic nurses connect to your port, it is a beautiful ribbon of light and sparkly brightness and cleansing bubbles washing away any rougue cells. Don't think of it as poison...instead, it's scrubbing bubbles and let them do their job. They are healing you...yes...they are. You can do this! So proud of you. :) Alma 22:15 is my favorite scripture. So, "give it everything you've got". :) It is the best Breast Cancer scripture. :)