Saturday, May 28, 2011

I'm still here among the living :)

Things are going pretty well so far with my recovery from surgery. I was able to get up and around quite a bit today with less pain. My sweet friend brought me lunch and my family came over this evening for a Memorial Day BBQ. My cute niece Kenzie entertained me with her exotic dancing and my mom and sisters have been pampering me with all of my favorite meals and treats. I have mostly been sleeping in between taking pain pills since Friday. It has been a little back and forth with the level of intensity on the pain, but overall surprisingly good.  I expect to be running a marathon by the end of the week :) LOL!

When I woke up from surgery on Friday afternoon, the first thing they told me was that there was no cancer found in the lymph nodes! I started crying and they asked if I was ok. I said yes, that I was just happy :). Even though I was a bit out of it, as I laid there I had an overwhelming sense of gratitude come over me. I felt so grateful for everything – the medical staff who were guided through a successful surgery and who were working to keep my pain down and expedite my healing, my family who was there helping me with every small and simple thing that I couldn’t do for myself, for all of you who have been praying for me and have taken the time to send kind and supportive notes, and for the knowledge I have of the eternal plan for our lives and the importance of trials in order for us to reach our full potential.  A great quote from my favorite movie Shadowlands: “The pain now is part of the happiness then. That's the deal."

We never know how we are going to react to something until we are in the situation and I feel so blessed to have the peace and comfort that has attended me from the beginning of this journey.  If I had been told that this trial was in my future, I am sure that I would have felt incapable of rising to the challenge. Yet somehow as it appeared out of nowhere, I have been blessed through it all to receive strength "in the very hour, yea in the very moment" that I have needed it and I have truly felt the love that "surpasses all understanding ".

Tomorrow I go in to see the Dr. and on Wednesday they will know more details on the pathology from the surgery, which will dictate how we proceed with Chemo. I’m looking forward to getting started, so that I can see the end in sight for completion. There’s so many of you that I would love to see, perhaps when I’m healed up from surgery, I can have a “Chemo Kickoff” party and shave my head :). Love you guys, thanks again for your continued support!

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