Wednesday, August 3, 2011

I’m having a “no hair” day

After having my short style for less than 2 days, I decided it was time to take the plunge and just get rid of the rest since it was falling out and my scalp felt like a million pins pricking it – especially when I tried to sleep.  So I had the lady at the wig store shave it off and then put my wig on.  I didn’t look until I got home tonight. 
I felt like Darth Vader, peeling the protective hat off that was placed under the wig.  As you can see, I have a lovely 2 tone look with my white scalp and darker face.  I think Chemo is good for the skin because my skin is more clear than ever.  It was short of shocking but also liberating to know that I am still me without my hair and that I can do this :).  I was so afraid of the unknown, and in some ways those unknowns are still to come – but now that I have taken the first step, it is a relief to know that I could get through this part. 
I am yet to experience awkward moments when I might not have a hat or hair to cover and come to know how others might react.  But really, it doesn’t matter what they think or say.  This is a necessary part of the healing process to kick this cancer completely out of my system and I am thankful for the modern advances in medicine that allow this to be possible. 
Today is 6 weeks since my reconstructive surgery and it is looking quite good if I do say so myself :).  I did acupuncture again and am feeling great today!  I'm looking forward to a fun weekend in California before I venture back to work next week - starting out part time to see how things go.  I had a nice visit from one of our VP’s today, who was in town from Portland.  It helped me remember what great people I work with and how much I miss them all!
I am touched by the many friends and family who have shown their support and love for me at this time.  I realize more each day how much I have been given during this interesting journey.  At difficult times it may be tempting to ask "why me?" but truly, I counter with the question - "why am I so very blessed?" 
I pray that you are also blessed to feel the love of the Lord that I feel at this time.


  1. You are awesome. Looking forward to when it grows back. I like the short hair look. It's very attractive.

  2. HI Amy,
    Bless your heart!! You are an inspiration to us all, always so positive and cheery. You look beautiful just the way you are! SO glad the lady at the wig shop hooked you up :) Many prayers are coming your way :)
    Love ~Julie Martell

  3. Great picture Amy. I love your honesty and courage.

  4. Amy, you're truely an amazing person... and I love the hallie berry look on you. Tres sexy! So glad to hear that you are doing so well.

  5. You guys are sweet, I can't figure out who c0113n is though? Is this a code :)?

  6. New business idea!! If we can figure out how to keep the chemo from making you lose your hair, but use it for your skin... Love you!!!

  7. Wow! You really do look beautiful! Your strength inspires me. Big hugs and many prayers for you, beautiful, funny, amazing, gifted and courageous Amy.

  8. Thanks guys! I really appreciate your kind words!